September 27, 2005

  • mila turned two on sunday.  here are some pictures that was taken on this one ride she was riding….

September 17, 2005

  • ed took this picture of miss mila…  i guess she had a hard day yesterday and decided to lounge on the couch and relax…  hard life, yeah right!

September 9, 2005

August 30, 2005

  • t minus five days before we head out from san francisco to chicago…   i have been looking forward to this trip since we booked the tickets back in july, i think.  ed and i need this time away from home to relax and rejuvenate so that when we come back to the bay area, we will appreciate what we have.  i realized that i need to do this more often than as of late.  it just seems like we let the day-to-day grind get to us that we forget to take some time for ourselves.  ed has a few things planned for us to do.  i really want to check out the frank lloyd wright houses, take a trip down the chicago river, take in the “magnificent mile” for shopping, check out the sears tower, the water tower, wrigley field…. as much as humanly possible to fit into a few days.   the saturday that we get there, i think we might check out grant park for a bit and then after i put shortie down for the night, ed and i are planning to step out somewhere to meet up with some of his buddies that went to purdue with him.  it’ll be like old times before we were pregnant with shortie.  just the two of us having a good time together.  heehee.  sunday, i think a lot of his family is coming down from all over the midwest to see us.  i have a sneaky suspicion that it’s really to see shortie.  they haven’t seen her since march, 2004 when we headed back to indianapolis for ed’s lola’s funeral.  the rest of the days, i’m not sure what ed has planned out but it should be fun.  god, i cannot tell you all how excited i am to go.  i come home everyday from work and tell ed how excited i am that we’re going to chicago.  hmm, i just had a thought.  what if i build up all these expectations of chicago and then when i go, i’m totally let down?  maybe i’ll just say in my head over and over again that it will suck rocks and then when it doesn’t, i’ll be pleasantly surprised.  lol.  a friend of mine told me that one time and it really worked!  we’re such dorks but i don’t want to build chicago up so much that i feel let down.  we’ll see.  i don’t think i’ll be disappointed but just to be safe, i’m going to say to myself now, “wow, this trip to chicago is really going to suck.” 

August 18, 2005

  • it’s been such a stressful couple of weeks lately. some of it because of work and some of it because of family stuff back home in LA.  work stuff is manageable.  just go to work, do the work and then leave the work stress / headache / stupidity back at work.  as for family, it’s been a bit tougher only because i’m all the way up here in the bay area.   during quarter end a few weeks ago, when my sister was flying up to watch mila one day, she told me what happened to my grandfather. he fell one day and hadn’t been taking too much nutrition for some reason and had to be hospitalized because of the injuries as well as the fact that he has no real muscle mass from the lack of nutrition.  since being in the hospital for almost 3 weeks, he was stable enough that they transferred him to a convalescent home. i went home this past weekend to see the family.  this was the first time in a long time that i was actually glad to be home.  all the other times i went because it was required of me or because it was some family holiday celebration.  this time i went because i knew that if i didn’t go and something happened before i was able to have a chance to go, then i would regret it and kick myself in the ass.  when we visited him at the convalescent home, i really didn’t get to say or do much with him. he saw us walk through the door and just closed his eyes. i think he was really tired because my aunt went earlier that day and took him outside to get some fresh air and some sun.  i guess that wore him out. but it was good to see him.  according to my father he looks like he’s gained some weight and has the color back in his face.  my sister asked me how he looked and i answered that i honestly didn’t know because i didn’t have anything to compare it to.  he still looked frail and skinny to me.  but i supposed i should take my family’s word since they go see him daily.

    since my grandfather’s accident, i’ve been hit with a huge dose of reality. how fragile life is and how much i take for granted.  i realized that i need to slow down and enjoy the little things in life.  i have also realized how much my family really means to me even though they sometimes can be overbearing or drive me absolutely crazy or a bit on the loopy / crazy side when it comes to my life and my life choices. i know they mean well but sometimes i need to fall flat on my face before i can really soak in the lesson.  i guess this impending trip to chicago will do me well.  it’s the vacation i will probably need for myself, my relationship with ed and for my little family – mila, ed and myself.

     

  • caught…. redhanded… that little sneaky kid of mine……

August 17, 2005

August 10, 2005

  • i saw these shirts on the abercrombie and fitch website…. they made me laugh…  

August 8, 2005

  • i found this “dear prudence” article online… and thank god for it…  i’m glad that a licensed psychologist wrote out against tom cruise’s ignorant rantings about psychiatry being a pseudoscience….  psychiatry/psychology helped me in many times of need…  while going through a deep depression about my life and after the birth of my daughter – dealing with postpartum depression…  i really think he should take a look at himself and his religion first before condemning it as something unnecessary but can be helped with exercise and vitamins…  i wonder what he did to katie holmes to fool her into marrying him… or maybe it was a publicity stunt… 


    http://slate.msn.com/id/2123487/6772


     

August 5, 2005