i am so delirious yet i am here at work. i missed 3 days last weekbecause of this weird flu that is going around.  i’m stillcoughing and achy and sore but at least i feel somewhat better thanlast week. 

i feel worse yet for mila.  she came down with a fever of 102.4last night after i fed her dinner.  she was watching hercinderella dvd and then came to where i was sitting, lay on her doracouch and just stayed there.  i felt her forehead and it wasburning up, changed her diaper, took her temperature and gave her babytyelnol to bring the fever down.  later on that night – around3am-ish, she woke up again and was burning up again.  took hertemperature and it was 102.9, gave her more baby tyelnol and had herdrink as much water as she could.  she also complained that herear was “owie”…  i hate it when she is sick…..

damn, just read something on espn.com that makes me really grateful for what i have in life….

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James Dungy, the 18-year-old son of Indianapolis Colts coach TonyDungy, was found dead at 1:30 a.m. ET Thursday in his apartment inLutz, Fla., a suburb of Tampa, Debbie Carter, a spokesperson for theHillsborough County Sheriff’s Office, confirmed Thursday.

In a news release on its Web site, the Hillsborough CountySheriffs Office said it “responded to the Campus Lodge Apartmentsthis morning at approximately 1:32 a.m. The girlfriend of JamesDungy had returned to the apartment and discovered Dungy.”

Police performed CPR on Dungy before he was taken to UniversityCommunity Hospital, where he was pronounced dead.

No foul play is suspected, but a cause of death won’t announced pendingan autopsy, said Vida Morgan, a secretary in the sheriff’s publicinformation office.

Tony Dungy has left the Colts and is in Tampa, ESPN has learned.

The coach and his wife, Lauren, have four other children:daughters Tiara and Jade, and sons Eric and Jordan.

The Colts (13-1) are at Seattle on Saturday.

Fans posted prayers and messages of support for Dungy, who also coachedthe Tampa Bay Buccaneers, on a message board on a Colts fanWeb site.

“Not only was he a great football coach for the Bucs, but he isan even better person,” one Tampa Bay fan wrote. “It makes mesick that it happened at this time of year to a person that is sogiving and caring.”

Another person wrote for God to give strength to Dungy duringthis difficult time.

“When things like this happen it adjusts our perspective onlife,” one person wrote. “What was considered major yesterdaydoesn’t amount to more than a footnote today.”

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*sigh* my thoughts and prayers are with the dungy family…. 

so yesterday we celebrated ed’s birthday at buca di beppo.  the whole day was so stressful for me because i was lying to him the entire day.  i mean, from the time i got up (which was past 8:30am) til dinner time, i was lying my ass off to him.  i felt bad because i told him that i was going to work late and then going in the afternoon, i was going to take mila with me since work was having these events / activities for the kids and it was going to be easier for me to take her right now rather than pick her up and come back to work.  whew.  a whole string of lies just for a surprise birthday party.  after picking up the cake and the sparkling candles and then dropping it off at the restaurant beforehand, shortie and i headed home.  i was so exhausted by this time that i just wanted to pass out.  but i had to keep up appearances about going to work, blah, blah, blah.  when we finally headed out to buca di beppo’s i was getting a little more anxious – just because i wanted everything to turn out well.  when we got to the restaurant, i went to check in with the hostess and ed noticed that one of his friends he used to work with was there and then he saw joey (his friend from purdue) there too – he finally caught on that there were going to be more of us joining in for his birthday celebration.  anyway, dinner went well and when the cake was brought out, ed was pretty surprised and floored by it.  shortie was so patient about waiting to get her little hands on the cake.  she was so happy when she finally ate some.  here are some pictures of the cake, shortie helping ed blow out the candles and ed pretending to do a battle dj move on the “turntables”

another canny resemblance between baby panda and baby mila….  they both like to sleep with their bum bums in the air.  amazing!  i think maybe mila was a baby panda in a former life.  what do you think?

ed, shortie and i got an early christmas gift.  i had the brilliant idea that instead of us going out to buy each other gifts with a cap of $250, that we should pool our money together and get a new tv for the front room.  ed agreed so we went to costco to check out the tvs and then we went to fry’s electronics to check on the prices.  we ended up getting this samsung lcd tv.  isn’t it freaking awesome!!!  when the sales guy pulled up the tv information on the computer, it was $200 less than the price that they had advertised – total bonus for ed and i since we agreed to split the cost.  whoo hoo!  i love our tv so much.  i ended up watching tv til ed got home from work.  hehe…  the picture is so much clearer on this tv.  dora the explorer looks so awesome on this tv.  god i am a genius for thinking of this!

my sister and i have a new obsession….  we are baby panda watching.  we’re watching the baby panda su lin that was born at the san diego zoo in august of this year.  she is so cute!!!  we luff her so much.  but not as much as we luff mila.  there are some comparison pictures i sent my sister to show her how cute and lazy both my baby girl and the baby panda are.  take a look and see and look at the resemblance.

baby panda chilling and resting (on left)    

mila chilling and resting (on right)

look at this lazy kid of mine…she can’t even sit up straight to watch her dora the explorer show…she is lying on the ground but resting her big head on her ikea stepstool to watch… aiya….

haven’t had much time to really sit down and update so i’ll just do it with pictures….

mila chilling after running around at her gymboree core class

bubbles…  mila loves jumping up and down and trying to catch the bubbles to pop them

mila’s masterpiece “apples” (on left)

and finally, her latest masterpiece of art…  scribbling on paper on her new easel mommy got her from ikea…… gotta love the ikea…

i think i am really burnt out with work, etc.  i need a break and get back to basics. i hate this feeling of “blah” that i have been having lately.  maybe it’s just a signal that i need to remember and realize that the simple things in life are more important than all the bs that has been getting to me.  i think this trip to la will be good for me.  it might rejuvenate me and i might get that much needed jolt of energy i have been missing.  being around family and friends always helps me.  i need to make more of an effort to make sure my friends all know that i am alive and that i am thinking about them…  i wish i had an extra 24 hours in my day.